Long night last night as my brain wouldn't shut down and I kept on thinking. Or is it worrying?
Woke up this morning in something of a bad mood. It has passed a bit. The thing that is bugging me is that I seemed to be stymied. I can't do things until I know something, but then I have to wait until I know something.
But when I get there, they are all going to expect me to do things already and I am not prepared to do anything at all.
For example, I'm still getting moved in out here, but now I may have to turn around and go back. It hasn't been easy do this much, so now I am expected to go back and repeat all this????
Well, I may have some help available. But there's limits to that. Do I really want to put everything in others' hands, after that limit is reached? These are people I don't know. After all the things they have told me that were wrong? Trust is questionable.
This isn't looking good.
I am told that when confronted with situations like this, one response is suicide. I am not of that mind, but I also not in the mind of turning over everything to people I don't know nor trust.
There was a mention of the Kevorkian route. I am not of that mind.
Those are some examples of what's on my mind about now.
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